Two years ago last week
Realization began to invade my mind
I made sure my vacation was set up
Going through the motions of my life
Actually telling people of your demise
Not believing the words as they left my lips
Two years ago last week
Two years ago yesterday
Watching your breaths come so slowly
Reassured me with each slight movement
Protecting you from harm seemed possible
Awaiting the moment you would awaken
And prove your invincibility once again
Two years ago yesterday
Two years ago today
I heard you whisper warnings in my ear
Thinking you were better instead I found
Sleep had robbed us of watching you cross
Peaceful stillness filled you and took you
Beautiful women wrapped your body in silk
Two years ago today
I tried to make them stop
I sobbed for them to let you be
Your family huddled together
Begging for just one reprieve
Strong men cried rivers of pain
Tales told of strength and bravery
Escaped my grief deafened ears
Words of solace not calming me
But angering my destroyed soul
I thought
I’m dying
Running
Escaping
From this
In my mind
Fire engulfed your tattered body
Sending you back to Mother Earth
White Painted Women held her son
Warriors battles passed on to his three
Stories of your amazing life of kindness
Intensified the grief ripping at my soul
Ultimate protection from evil torn away
Sensitivity curled up writhing in pain
Alone I stood with everything burning
I thought
I’m dying
Sobbing
Running
For real
Beware
Everywhere I flee to you are still gone
No matter where I go you’re not there
Trusting only you with my secrets exploded
It never crossed my mind that you could die
New teachers mean nothing I don’t trust them
Finding my journey on a solitary trail of tears
Amazing discoveries no one else would get
Make me want to ignore the wonderful
To avoid the tearing moment of despair
I think
I feel you
Around
I want
To hug you
Physically
Focusing on you a year ago last week
And my kid needs surgery on her spine
And my job went insane even for the mad
And my religious convictions were tested
And my Archangel is on holiday in heaven
And Ratsputin and Merlin dropped by
Focusing on you a year ago last week
Focusing on you a year ago Yesterday
And my kids surgery got moved up
And I resigned from the job that I loved
And I have enough money for a month
And I want stay in the Bell Tower forever
And I don’t think I have ever eaten so many Oreos
Focusing on you a year ago Yesterday
Focusing on you a year ago Today
And I have to go to Church of Paps
And I have to hang around with the toddlers
And I have to find a new place to work
And I have to get new toys for the rats
And I have to keep moving or I will dissolve.
Focusing on you a year ago Today
Reflections of you last week
Pondering if I learned my lessons well
Secrets once kept that I now always tell
Birth rites held hostage by my steady hand
Making the decisions I know you would understand
Reflections of you last week
‘4
For Michael and all who miss him
ks2008
Realization began to invade my mind
I made sure my vacation was set up
Going through the motions of my life
Actually telling people of your demise
Not believing the words as they left my lips
Two years ago last week
Two years ago yesterday
Watching your breaths come so slowly
Reassured me with each slight movement
Protecting you from harm seemed possible
Awaiting the moment you would awaken
And prove your invincibility once again
Two years ago yesterday
Two years ago today
I heard you whisper warnings in my ear
Thinking you were better instead I found
Sleep had robbed us of watching you cross
Peaceful stillness filled you and took you
Beautiful women wrapped your body in silk
Two years ago today
I tried to make them stop
I sobbed for them to let you be
Your family huddled together
Begging for just one reprieve
Strong men cried rivers of pain
Tales told of strength and bravery
Escaped my grief deafened ears
Words of solace not calming me
But angering my destroyed soul
I thought
I’m dying
Running
Escaping
From this
In my mind
Fire engulfed your tattered body
Sending you back to Mother Earth
White Painted Women held her son
Warriors battles passed on to his three
Stories of your amazing life of kindness
Intensified the grief ripping at my soul
Ultimate protection from evil torn away
Sensitivity curled up writhing in pain
Alone I stood with everything burning
I thought
I’m dying
Sobbing
Running
For real
Beware
Everywhere I flee to you are still gone
No matter where I go you’re not there
Trusting only you with my secrets exploded
It never crossed my mind that you could die
New teachers mean nothing I don’t trust them
Finding my journey on a solitary trail of tears
Amazing discoveries no one else would get
Make me want to ignore the wonderful
To avoid the tearing moment of despair
I think
I feel you
Around
I want
To hug you
Physically
Focusing on you a year ago last week
And my kid needs surgery on her spine
And my job went insane even for the mad
And my religious convictions were tested
And my Archangel is on holiday in heaven
And Ratsputin and Merlin dropped by
Focusing on you a year ago last week
Focusing on you a year ago Yesterday
And my kids surgery got moved up
And I resigned from the job that I loved
And I have enough money for a month
And I want stay in the Bell Tower forever
And I don’t think I have ever eaten so many Oreos
Focusing on you a year ago Yesterday
Focusing on you a year ago Today
And I have to go to Church of Paps
And I have to hang around with the toddlers
And I have to find a new place to work
And I have to get new toys for the rats
And I have to keep moving or I will dissolve.
Focusing on you a year ago Today
Reflections of you last week
Pondering if I learned my lessons well
Secrets once kept that I now always tell
Birth rites held hostage by my steady hand
Making the decisions I know you would understand
Reflections of you last week
‘4
For Michael and all who miss him
ks2008