Berated and ignored, Mothers Milk
Twelve years of duck and cover was enough
Be skinny, be quiet, be accommodating
Or you’ll never get a man to love you
How will you survive, you’ll be an old maid
Running from her before puberty
Seemed like the answer to my problems
City life fit my ragged soul like a glove
Three boys surrounding me like a fence
Deflecting my advances, still loving me
Admiration for my intelligence, love for my soul
Painful adoration constantly awaiting their price
Hearing maternal voice “You’re fat, You’re loud”
Reaffirming these boys couldn’t possibly care
About someone as horrible and ugly as me
Running from myself at every twist and turn
Three of them protecting me
Always led me back home
Sage hugs bringing me clarity
Magical lessons fiercely taught
Pure love enveloping my psyche
Danger notwithstanding, I stayed
Still running from myself at every twist and turn
Unreasonable distrust brings me patience
Needing years of space brings me silence
Forgetting the passion brings me understanding
Awakening phone call after months brings me love
“Why do you put up with my messed up bullshit?”
“Don’t you know there isn’t anything you can do to make me stop loving you?”
The most profound words delivered to wounded ears nonchalantly
Making my heart bleed with agony and soar with passion simultaneously
Twice I have heard them spoken now and still I am completely blown away
Simplicity smoothes my confusion, lovingly hugging away every single fear
Molding me into the person I am with kindness and stubborn devotion
I probably won’t stop running, but know that I am hearing you.
ks2008
Twelve years of duck and cover was enough
Be skinny, be quiet, be accommodating
Or you’ll never get a man to love you
How will you survive, you’ll be an old maid
Running from her before puberty
Seemed like the answer to my problems
City life fit my ragged soul like a glove
Three boys surrounding me like a fence
Deflecting my advances, still loving me
Admiration for my intelligence, love for my soul
Painful adoration constantly awaiting their price
Hearing maternal voice “You’re fat, You’re loud”
Reaffirming these boys couldn’t possibly care
About someone as horrible and ugly as me
Running from myself at every twist and turn
Three of them protecting me
Always led me back home
Sage hugs bringing me clarity
Magical lessons fiercely taught
Pure love enveloping my psyche
Danger notwithstanding, I stayed
Still running from myself at every twist and turn
Unreasonable distrust brings me patience
Needing years of space brings me silence
Forgetting the passion brings me understanding
Awakening phone call after months brings me love
“Why do you put up with my messed up bullshit?”
“Don’t you know there isn’t anything you can do to make me stop loving you?”
The most profound words delivered to wounded ears nonchalantly
Making my heart bleed with agony and soar with passion simultaneously
Twice I have heard them spoken now and still I am completely blown away
Simplicity smoothes my confusion, lovingly hugging away every single fear
Molding me into the person I am with kindness and stubborn devotion
I probably won’t stop running, but know that I am hearing you.
ks2008